If you were to come over on any given day and ask me what I had to eat, the options would be pretty limited. Since I’ve been off ALL drugs for the past two – three months. Yes, you heard read it right… I stopped the three times a week injections, the pretty little two toned blue pill that keeps me sane, energized, and without any of the hurties (what I some times call pain -If it’s a cute word then maybe the extremity of the pain will be too?)
But, with that being said, my food options are very limited. No dairy, really no gluten, A LOT of veggies, lean protein, and fruit. Basically, the fridge looks like the organic section at Sprouts or HEB. Thank god my roommate is the same for the most part. The cravings could be really bad if I were to see a lot of things that I used to eat on a daily basis. What do I miss you ask?
Just kidding, maybe the occasional #1 at Chicken Fila 🙂
Or the occasional cupcake at Sprinkles, or Red Velvet donuts, or donuts in general, or red velvet in general… Enough I’m getting off track.
My point is, I had to take those things away so I could feel better, I had to “trim the fat”, as some would say, and focus on what was going to make me healthy, and make my body happy, i.e. want to work. I had to Eat what was going to give me fuel, and since I am not taking any disease modifying drugs at the moment, or taking anything for pain- all for my own reasons. I need to eat what wasn’t going to increase the chances of symptoms those drugs helped to decrease from happening.
Thing is, as I was doing this to myself, the same thing was being done to me at work. Funny how this works right? So annoying!
I came in to the office one morning and was told that everything I normally worked on would be taken away from me. Talk about a blow to the ego!
What?! Was my response, along with some choice word’s that I may or may not have been able to hide under my breath.
What I didn’t realize then, was that this was all for my own good. We had to trim the fat.
Now, what really happened was that I didn’t get anything taken away from me, but nonetheless got more things handed to me. Again, funny how that works.
What am I really getting at with this post?
While yes, all of these things happened… and are still for the most part happening. We always think that it will be the end of the world if change were to occur. More than likely when things like this are happening it’s for our good.
I had to change my eating habits so that I didn’t have to rely solely on the drugs that were making me feel like an extra from the walking dead. Do you know how scary that was to do? Do you know how many questioning looks I get, how many crazy woman looks I get when I tell someone with MS that I decided to do this?
After I got over the ego blow, I realized that I had so much more to offer to the world, notice I didn’t say work or company. We’re thinking bigger picture now. I have so much more to offer the WORLD than what I was doing. It took the blow to the ego, of someone taking mundane mindless work away from me, to realize it. I was hanging onto some sort of normalcy. Comfort, if you will. Guess what comfort zones will do to you friend? Kill you. Softly. There. I said it.
Comfort zones = Death
1 Peter 4:12-13
Friends, when life gets really difficult, don’t jump to the conclusion that God isn’t on the job. Instead, be glad that you are in the very thick of what Christ experienced. This is a spiritual refining process, with glory just around the corner.
Something better is around the corner. I had to refine my eating habits to ensure I will be able to work as a well-oiled machine, to be able to do all the things I want to do!
I had to have menial things threatened to be taken away from me, to realize, hey dummy- this isn’t it! There’s more to life, there’s more to you!
Trust the process loves. Greater is coming around the corner!